Scripture Reading: Philippians 3:4-14
Career coach and author Ashley Stahl begins her TED Talk, which is entitled, “How to figure out what you really want,” by telling the story of the day her father received a terrifying phone call. The first thing he heard was a woman screaming, then he was told his daughter had been kidnapped and would be killed if he did not send a ransom right away. After two awful hours of trying to manage the situation, thankfully, it turned out to be a scam. Ashley was alive and well at her own home, though she quickly left to visit her father and comfort him after the terror he’d experienced.
But when it was all over, Ashley had some questions. She wondered how her father, who she said is “supersmart,” had been duped by the scammers, and she was astonished at how quickly he had given away his power to these strangers. “Eventually,” she said, “I managed to ask him, ‘Did you ever doubt that this was real?’ And he gave an answer that we all tend to give when life corners us and we buy into fear. He said to me, ‘I didn’t think that there was another option.’”
His comment led Ashley to wonder, “When do we kidnap ourselves,” because we don’t believe there is a better option to survive, get by, or meet our needs? In her work, she has seen how many people silence their soul longings and stay in careers they don’t really want. Ashley says, “I encourage you to ask yourself, ‘Where am I kidnapping myself from the life that I really want?’ How am I giving away my power, getting into fear, just to meet my needs in the world?’”
To me, Ashley’s questions resonate with some of the underlying questions of today’s scripture reading: What do you value most? Are you free to wholeheartedly pursue what it is that you value? If not, what do you need to let go of to get free? Will you resist or will you welcome the changes that pursuing your deepest values brings to your life?
Ashley’s use of the kidnapping metaphor also struck me, because in today’s text, Paul plays with a Greek word which has a similar basic meaning. He uses it twice in verse 12, where one translation has it, “I press on to lay hold of that for which Christ has laid hold of me.” Or, as another has it, “I pursue it, so that I may grab hold of it because Christ grabbed hold of me.”*
As scholar Beverly Gaventa writes, “The English translation needs to be more forceful, as in ‘because I have been overtaken by Christ Jesus.’ Paul’s understanding that he was seized or captured by Christ, not that he initiated the relationship, or that he earned it somehow. Because of that seizure, which Paul now understands to have been a gift of grace, he continues to strive toward what lies ahead.”**
Recalling Paul’s story from Acts, this language of “capture” resonates. Though he never met Jesus in person, years after Jesus’ death and resurrection, Paul, then called Saul, was on the road to Damascus, where he planned to further persecute the Jewish Christ-followers, when he had a vision of the Risen Lord.
This mystical encounter left him blinded for three days. His sight was restored when Ananias, a Christ-follower, laid hands on him to heal him. Through Ananias, the grace of Jesus Christ quite literally reached out, “laid hold” of him, and completely changed Paul’s future.
That he didn’t initially choose these drastic changes makes it all the more remarkable how Paul eventually embraced them. What changed for Paul, aside from his name? You heard Paul’s resume in today’s text. He lays out his impeccable pedigree as a member of the people of Israel, the honorable status he was born into: “circumcised on the eighth day, a member of the people of Israel, of the tribe of Benjamin, a Hebrew born of Hebrews.”
Paul also lists his own credentials and accomplishments–those things he made of the life he was given: “as to the law, a Pharisee; as to zeal, a persecutor of the church; as to righteousness under the law, blameless.” Not only was he born into a high status family, but he spent his life fulfilling the obligations and expectations of his family and religious community.
Summing up this sort of life-assets spreadsheet, Paul says he had plenty of reasons for “confidence in the flesh.” That phrase is important, because it reminds us that he is writing these words in the context of a warning he’s just given the Philippians about a faction of Jewish Christ-followers who are telling Gentiles that they can’t really be part of the faith unless they get circumsised. From Paul’s perspective, these people are preaching a false confidence in the flesh.
It is by Spirit, not by flesh, that believers become children of God in Jesus Christ. Now, Paul uses the word “flesh” a lot in his letters, and it’s important to remember that he isn’t denigrating the human body. The word he uses is not soma, which signifies a healthy body, but sarx, which refers to the body in a broken, diseased, or decaying state. Sarx is “corruptible,” both in the sense that it can be lured into destructive and immoral ways of relating to oneself and others, but also because it gets sick, decays, and dies.
So, using this word, sarx, flesh, Paul is actually pointing to a flawed worldview and a false way of being human. As Richard Rohr comments, “flesh” is Paul’s way of naming “the trapped self, the small self, the partial self, or what Thomas Merton called the false self…Every time Paul uses the word flesh, just replace it with the word ego, and you will be much closer to his point.”***
Our egos, I’ve learned from psychologists, are largely composed of our habitual strategies we have learned through our lives in order to ward off vulnerability, survive, and to get our needs met. We think of them as our personality, but many of these patterns developed through trauma experiences. What began as a way to cope with rupture, fear, and loss has become a scaffolding to construct a self which can function in society.
Ultimately scaffolding must come down and reveal the true architecture underneath–or else we become captives in the prison of the small self. So, where Ashley Stahl invites us to ask, “Where am I holding myself captive?” Paul might ask instead, “How are you captive to the flesh?”
But as the author of Ephesians writes, “He made captivity itself a captive.” So, when Christ met Saul on that road, the Apostle was captured with a vision of another option, another way of being alive and in relationship with others, something more powerful and more eternal than “the flesh.”
He was captivated by the availability of a new reality which made all the status he’d acquired look like rubbish–or as a more precise translation puts it, like “dog dung.” Tallying all his fleshly qualifications up in a sort of life-assets spreadsheet, now everything that Paul once thought to be his assets he now considers as debits against his one and only credit: “the surpassing value of knowing Jesus Christ my Lord.”
As Paul tries to describe this asset, this new worldview, he writes, one author notes, “like a man in love, desperately desiring to have the joy of a full union with Christ.”**** “I want to know Christ,” he says, “yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, and so, somehow, attaining to the resurrection from the dead.”
The Resurrection of the Dead to Paul means more than life after death. With those words, Paul is pointing to the age to come, the new creation kicked off in Jesus’ resurrection, a vision of humanity and creation joined together on Earth in a “full, woken, authentic life.”*****
It is the life of the Spirit, the life of the True Self, joined to all other True Selves. It is a life, healed from trauma, freed from fear of the other, freed for service which blesses everyone and everything.
The vision, the in-breaking reality of this kind of life in Paul’s encounter with Jesus Christ changes everything. He does indeed suffer losses and die: he dies to the flesh, his small ego-self, to the parts of his identity which have been holding him back from embracing the fullness of God’s love. Paul lets them go, he lets the changes happen, because he is holding on to something more powerful, enduring, and eternal.
My friends, the good news is that Jesus comes to us and lays hold of us, in his life, death, and resurrection. He comes to captivate us with another option beyond the false, small self shaped by fear. He comes and demonstrates what it looks like to live with confidence in the Holy Spirit, to live free of fear, and to truly love God and neighbor. Jesus presses on all the way through the cross to resurrection, breaking open the new creation so that we can follow and enter in.
But here’s the difference between Christ and all the other gods: the God of Love does not bully others into conformity. Christ always gives us freedom: we can always walk away from the vision of the resurrected life and cling to the small self with its false sense of safety. Or we, like Paul, can embrace the changes and press on toward the goal, to lay hold the reality for which Christ laid hold of us.
There is no doubt that we are living through an era of constant, rapid change. Sometimes we feel kidnapped by it; sometimes it seems the grief of the losses these changes bring goes on and on.
Yet, the most powerful change at work in us is the call of the Resurrection Life in Christ Jesus. When we let ourselves be captivated by this calling, when we say yes to it as Paul has, every other change that happens to us is transformed from obstacle to opportunity. We are made able to release the captivity of the flesh and receive the freedom of the Holy Spirit.
Paul says he hasn’t gotten there yet, but he’s not giving up. He forgets what is behind and strains toward what is ahead. Filled with the Holy Spirit here and now, he engages his purpose with passion and power, facing whatever suffering that comes with courage.
My friends, Paul, called by Christ, in turn calls us to go all in, wholeheartedly pursuing the life that is really life. Letting go of captivity to fear, let us hold fast to the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus our Lord, and let us press ever closer to the prize of the resurrection life. Alleluia and Amen.
Sources:
*Bible translations are the NRSVUE and the CEB from BibleGateway.com
**Beverly Gaventa, quoted from Texts for Preaching, Year A, p. 512-3, at Pulpit Fiction: Proper 22A (OT 27) — Pulpit Fiction
***Richard Rohr, https://cac.org/daily-meditations/paul-nondual-teacher-2017-05-17/
****https://www.workingpreacher.org/commentaries/revised-common-lectionary/fifth-sunday-in-lent-3/commentary-on-philippians-34-14-7
*****Pulpit Fiction, as above.